Well I have had to ask myself over and over again, why this course again and why now? Well before I wrote this blog I did a whole lot of thinking and I had also jumped into this course Monday fresh off of another 3 day weekend of self reflection like none other. I can not talk about it here but I am more then willing to share when asked. What I can say is for those three days I shared from a place of authenticity and I learned so much about me and to top it all off I met some amazing people who all made me feel like I could take on the world twice!!! The reason why that was so possible for me, (and I am 100% sure about this) is because I had already taken this course once before. I have been consciously on my journey since 2012 and I took this class in 2015. When I took it before, I did not have a job and I was just figuring out my purpose. So I was whole lot of depressed and struggling with the principles from a place of believing them to not just be an idea, but our truth. However, I felt betrayed because if this is the truth why have we all not been taught about our power? Why do people think there is no hope and that their life is meaningless or that they have to wait for someone or some being to save them?
Well this led me to a whole lot more doubt unconsciously. I was teaching this in seminars and deep down struggling with questions like, are people getting this? Are they receiving this? Do they think I have lost it? I played it safe and still put limitations on my beliefs so I did not seem too weird. I have since let go of those doubts about our truth as spiritual beings having this human experience.
I have also come to understand that we struggle with this mostly because we think on a 3D level and on this level we only believe what we see mostly. We believe what is safe to believe, we are safe in that way. There is nothing wrong with that. This is truly up to the individual and based on what you want out of this human experience. I truly believe now that you have to “be”lieve it to see it. This is true at the core of who we are and who we can become. If you, at your core truly believe that you are at your best, then no matter where you are, you are 100% correct!
So the first time out, all of this was great and I got it but I still believed to my core that I was not enough and who am I to want to do the things that I want, accomplish the things that I want to accomplish and help the people I want to help? Who am I? I am not smart enough to remember all these things, speak in front of people, I am not where I want to be physically, emotionally or financially. What am I doing trying to start a business? Lol!!! Girl bye, sit down please! This was my self talk even while I am standing in front of people talking about being a creator and everything being created by what we think, feel and believe about ourselves. There was no harmony within as far as I could tell but putting the tools that I got through taking this course into practice kept me going in the right direction.
I started working at the current place I am now and I started at one of the lower levels for my experience . At my job before my starting position at the current organization I was making $7,000 more a year then I started off making. I took it because I liked the organization and I truly just needed to work. I worked that job for 6 months and ended up getting over a $10,000 increase per year along with a supervisor’s position. I truly am not stating that to brag about any of this. I just want people who read this to understand my experience thus far. My subconscious mind could not climb the ladder as fast due to 40 some odd years of not knowing my truth so I had to work really hard to get where I am mentally. Now its sinking in and I feel more excitement then fear and more desire then scarcity. Why not do it again right now? I learned a whole lot and will forever be a student to life but its about to be much more exciting because I know what I know.
So, why this course again and why now? Because it truly worked, it has me in a better place mentally which is the most important part to growth, new muscles have to be formed to replace the old atrophied muscles that I had before, and I am 100% sure that I AM already who I aim to be, I just have to get better at allowing and not forcing the process.
We must “be” before we can “do” and we can “do” only to the extent which we “are”, and what we are depends upon what we “think”! Charles Haanel…The Master Key System.