Week 15-Natural Laws Rock!

Haanel writes in part 15-3 in the Master Keys that “Difficulties, inharmonies, and obstacles, indicate that we are either refusing to give out what we no longer need, or refusing to accept what we require.” Just think about that for a few minutes, let it sync in.
The moment I read those exact words, I had to pause, read them about four more times. Something was calling me out right then and there.
Well I am aware that you see things when it’s time and I am already wondering why I am having such a difficult time financially. I definitely know to ask the question and wait for the answer. Boom! Here we go. Here is my answer right here.
I give whenever I can but I have a problem with receiving. I don’t want to be taken care of but I didn’t have a choice. I do not want people to see me as a charity case but many people have helped and still continue to help me. I thank the for it, I am so grateful!
But it still made me feel bad. All this time throughout this course I had to battle those feelings of shame and embarrassment because I was financially  challenged. 
Here I am, not being ungrateful but really feeling like crap because I can not take care of myself like I am accustomed to.
Then we get to part 15…and wow! Well here it is. It’s like the universe said you know why your not able to give like you want to? Because you don’t receive well. Not only should you say thank you but feel the love that was just shared with you. Someone saw that you needed to be loved and instead of appreciation, you bring shame and fear or embarrassment to the party. Maybe it’s because I have always felt like I have to do this myself whatever I want or need if I can not give it to myself, I should not expect anyone else to help me. It’s how I was raised.
Don’t get me wrong I still don’t have any expectations from anyone. I just know now that I need to learn to appreciate the kindnesses when it shows up and not allow the negative thoughts to come into play. This was truly a mind blowing week. The crazy thing is after I had this epiphany and learned my lesson for the week, boom! I start work on Monday, just like freaking that! The Law of Giving and Receiving, yep I received openly this lesson and look what happened!  God bless!

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8 thoughts on “Week 15-Natural Laws Rock!

  1. The scripture says it is more blessed to give than to receive….BUT without someone to receive, how is the giver to even give? I had a chat with my church leader about this. He asked me if I would accept something even if I didn’t need it, because someone needed to give it? Personally I think the road of the receiver is a much harder road to trod because of all those feelings that you talked about. But they are something we also have to overcome. Excellent Post. Thanks for sharing.

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  2. Gooooooosebumps!!! my friend!!! I have always know the greatness in you from the first time we were on Zoom with Carolyn. As I am writing this to you I am smiling and yes, a tear of joy coming from both eyes… I am blessed to know you Denise…. Powerful post… thank you 🙂 God Bless you Denise!

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  3. Thank you for sharing this I too have been brought up in the same way. A good friend once said to me what do you feel when you give to others ? Then why not receive gracefully…… ???gifts,compliments and help are offered to you with the same thought as you give with. Accept…
    its ok your independence is not affected,givers do it with love just as you do.

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