Something about this weeks lesson has me really diving deep. In the very first line to describe part 8 Haanel states you may freely choose what you think but the result of your thought is governed by an immutable law! Great but what about the fact that my blueprint is stinking up the place most of the time? I had been conditioned to think the worst of most everything and minimize myself to make people comfortable so I in return can be comfortable around them.
Thinking my thoughts that my current blueprint thrives off of, no this is not great! How hard is it to change 30 plus years of mediocre thoughts and behaviors?! Very d#@& hard. I knew it would be but wow! Anyway…what is free will? One would say it is the ability to think and behave on your own volition. I agree but here is the thing, you have to realize when your thoughts are the reason you can’t grow into your greatest version of you. Even that your thoughts are restricting your ability to believe in yourself so then yes you can do something but now you must dedicate yourself to this because this is no small task! So is it really free will? Or have we been taught what to think and not how to think for ourselves?
My core is being shaken and stirred right now. I feel that is great! It must be because these last few weeks have been the most challenging mentally for me thus far. Heck, honestly, I can remember that I use to see myself speaking in front of other people but now I can’t even use my imagination to trace a battleship back to a thought?!
There is a very small part of me that is horrified because if I can not use my imagination then what does this mean for my future? But the braver, bolder side of me says this is temporary and I now have the knowledge to put to use in order to develop a new blueprint. Practice! My future is based on immutable laws and I choose to believe that once in harmony with the natural laws,(this is what MKMMA is all about)everything will align as it should be. I know that just like anything else, I must develop my mental, belief, and spiritual muscles and the patience to endure. I trust that it is all falling into place internally.
Honestly, I love this journey I am on right now…I know that my life is going to change beyond recognition and I am looking forward to my new life!