If the conscious mind relays “true” messages to the subconscious mind in order to create my experiences then what is the I? What is it and what does it do? Haanel states in part 4 that “The “I” must be something that controls and directs both the body and the mind; something which determines what they shall do and how they shall act. When you come into the true nature of this “I”, you will enjoy a sense of power which you have never before known.”
My thought is the I is the soul, plain and simple. It is the god in us that is connected to GOD our creator. Unfortunately, most of us are not in tune with the true god in us because we are taught to believe that GOD our creator was unreachable in us and we had to connect with him through church, our pastor or some other form of ritual that only pushed us further away from our creator. For me this caused a huge interference in my life. Because not only was I taught the latter but I was also taught sinners, especially someone like me who is a Lesbian could not even get through to GOD. He was ashamed of me, or some other phrase that created a lifetime of pain and confusion to say the least. Because I did not know one ounce of what I know now, I was a lost soul or “I” for a long time. All of the dreams that I felt were buried under tremendous amounts of depression, self hate and total defiance of my spirituality. For a long time I was angry that GOD allowed me to be who I am and would not take away the feelings I had for women. I struggled with everything in my life because of it.
Thank GOD for my persistence I finally found a way to feed my soul, literally give my I the opening it needs to shine. Now I know there is no limit to my spiritual growth and my life, well, I am rewriting the script to my new life right now. I now know that “I can be what I will to be” This is the most powerful statement in the world to me at this moment. It does not matter in my life what I have been or who I am, my sex, race or orientation I can be what I believe. There is no greater feeling in knowing but also if I choose not to become the greatest version of me then it is my own fault and no one else’s.